And you have to figure those things out before you can figure out a way to get yourself there. There are more and more people expecting and demanding more and more of you. I know that sounds like a good thing, but it's much more heartache than it's worth. There isn't anyone making decisions for you anymore. You think that everything will be wonderful when you get a car. Everything is going to be wonderful when you "grow up". You go through adolescence and you think that things just can't get any worse. So even though it's nowhere near my birthday, I'm having the birthday blues. It seems like everyone is having a birthday. If I were my brother right now, I'd be sleeping soundly without a care in the world. Yelling, screaming, frustration, anger, dissappointment. It's potentially a tremendously huge thing. I let my boss down something major and got her in trouble with her boss too. So I wasn't in trouble or being "bad" or anything. at odds completely with my parents, I was gone. After high school I let my parents down quite a bit. I never really did anything wrong or let anybody down. Mostly because I've never had the balls to do anything. Not because I wanted to be, or because of anything I chose. My whole life I've been pretty much a goody goody two shoes. But I can be cynical and rebellious, I guess. I think that for the most part I am a positive person. And she has nothing to do with this situation, yet I feel guilty for saying that, and even thinking it. Have you ever thought about how everyone you've ever interacted with in your life has some effect on your life? I mean. Tracy would look at that and go "Nice Attitude!" and give me a horrendous look. If this one get's deleted once it's ages and ages long, I'm not retyping anything, and I hereby give up on updating. Ok so here's another feeble attempt at a journal entry.
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